episode 38 - life n tymes...

chilling out is e bez....haha....n me n my gerl juz go on 2 2 mnths...happie seyy..haha...goin fer 3rd month readi...haha...den 3 daes past i went chalet...nothing 2 do....den 2morrow is e last of 2007...im gonna mizz all e moments i had...cheerful or sad...i still go on...my comp stinks...juz hate it...

dats y my updating is realli damn late...shit ass comp...looks lyke my smoking habit is goin down though...haha...nex yr i go ITE...yeah2...i pass my N lvl...hehe...skills improving...band nt goin ani further...bcoz of my gerl la...den who...?aiyoos...she cant sing infrnt of me la seyy...aiyoos...no matter wad...i love her....don wanna 2 make her cry...the chalet wif my fren is goin great...haha...had a great tyme dere...n i nd 2 cut my hair seyy...
haha....

kk dats all i wanna 2 update....

bye2.....

i love tasha alotzzz!
ilyas goes Frontage Flesh

episode 37 - painful streak

this few daes....nothing much happen...juz normally fight here and there....
love here and there.....

my body hurts...my left ear is deaf...i cant hear a sound....im so damn sick uh....

i cant post dat much....i wanna chill leks my mind out.....

episode 36 - its been awhile i mean long...haha...

okaes...hello n welcome 2 wonderland inside me...haha....

cant sleep lerrs.....donnoe y...wanna come out 2 lepak wif my frens n all...haiz.....
juz kene lectures....haiz....i juz hate it....

ok2....hari raye juz passed...everitink juz seems normal 2 me....n still...still boring fer raye....bcoz...im gettin older den i tot...haha....mani of my p6 frens gt promoted...n my fren dayah also gt promoted 2 sec 4e...gd fer her...im werking...so much money i earn...much better though...haha....
things cant get ani worse....my bro seems 2 b more immature....
n guess wad...i dye my hair even i gt scold by my stupidty father...haiz.....luckily nt purple or wad.....haiz....juz plain brown even highlite also cannot....

i wanna 2 LIVE MY OWN LIFE...I WANNA 2 B INDEPENDENT....haiz...bt wen...?
my dearest fren shiqin....juz sae 2 me....is my blog is rest in peace...?
nah its nt...still goin....bt nt much uh.....haiz...wad 2 sae....
no lyfe....haiz...

kk dats all....n wait....I GT MY OWN WIFE...HAHA.....
i love her so much lerss....n now its abt 1 mnth pluz...i think...hahaha....
kk...goin 2 2nd month soon...hehe...my 1st breakthrough....

ilyas....
Frontage Flesh....
ILY her...

episode 35 - long term waiting....

hey.....long tyme havent update my bloggie...haha...kk here's it goes....during e month of ramadhan...i have to much sufferin of disease called overeact depression...haiz...its juz because of one simple rejection i cant take...haiz...wad happen 2 me...now.....den one gerl appear infront of me saes dat she loves me...it kinda makes me feel okae readi....i will fulfill my journey with her...i will try 2 keep her in touch...i will try 2 keep her till my NS life has over....i will keep her till our last breath has gone.....tears may fall....escaped the fate....broken promises...n i will goin 2 end my old life of mine...n im changin it 2 my new self....fer wishes may come true i will pray fer u my mighty god of mine.....

till den....i hope 2 b wif her.....

episode 34 - acception by u is needed 2 let it go...

i been gettin fed up by everi person dat i now...haiz.....i need nt 2 wait fer u animore...let me die in peace or search fer another one....juz b usual lyke we did b4....it feels more comfortable....i nd 2 accept ur choices u made...i cant force u either....i made my probs...n no one will interfere xcept me...

i cant go further animore....i cn push my self 2 another limitations....i nd 2 b independent....being old is 2 fast fer me sey...haiz.....kinda funny though...i hope another cn accept me fer whom i am....

im kinda feeling sleepy ryte now...haa.....kk...wanna go sleep....
wish me luck kaes.....?
ilyas fading is juz lyke by snappin fingers.....

episode 33 - waiting and patience takes place in me....

hey2....hahakz....onli 1 dae nvr update my bloggie...haha....kaes...nothing much happen....Dayah...i nd 2 accept ur choices....i cnt force u animore....i juz nd 2 b lonely and overcome my depression....haiz....no nd 2 worry fren...i am used 2 b in diz wae....nothing better 2 do....haha....

den i am awake frm 11 pm....bcoz my cuzzies wan 2 watch horror movies....haiz...i hate horror films....nothing better 2 watch izit??? now onli 7.15 am....haha...lame siot....haha...no one onlines everi morn do they...?haha...i am e onli one hu is better den u all...wahahaha....i am tryin 2 find a new one instead...hmm....mayB i am waiting fer u gerl...haha...i am wan 2 wait long2 cn...i don care....i will wait fer u...even it takes me more den 20 yrs....bcoz...e last tyme u waited fer me....at last u gt it...now its my turn 2 do e same thing lyke u did....

k dats all fer e post....byes....n GD MORNIN, AFTERNOON and EVENING!...hahakz.....
ilyas will alwaes wait fer u....

episode 32 - fastin month goin 2 end n everitink bck 2 normal...

hey...its been 19 daes we have been fastin...i think....haha....diz yr i cn get full fastin...haha...yay!gd 2 hear dat everithing bck 2 normal, my ex bck 2 herself...e laughaholics side of her n still loving him as alwaes....my fren here....still stressin abt her EOY....hopefully she cn do e paper...smiles....my adek angkat seems 2 enjoying herself n nt studying....ish3....better study hard ehk adeq...haha...met new frens at frenster...new hopes n same old dreams...

i prefer hatred in myself...n lyke 2 stab by my ownself...n so dat ppl wont think abt dat much....i prefer leave dem alone n bck 2 myself n my lonely innerself n getting readi 2 b killed....its nonsense though...i donnoe y ppl keep goin away lyke dey nt usually do....???bt hey im fergot 2 wake up fer morning breakfast sey...haiz....at least i cn still fast...n cant wait 2 break it...haha...dae by dae....im feelin sick...feelin bored...no feelings at all...tyme goes by slowly...no ambitions...no hopes....n ferget abt my dreams...it will nvr b coming true...fer which most...i will wait till e tyme comes....n i don care....u waited fer me long enough...its my turn 2 b lyke u....yes u......

ilyas....fading off with tears n unhappiness....

episode 31 - lyfe gone as simple by stabbing a knife 2 a person...

cryin in a lonely nyte is one of dem.....
stabbing ppl bcks makes things worse....
lyke ppl alwaes said...frens come and go lyke anytime dey wan....
i alwaes love diz sumone...
n i will keep her...
i will let her stay out of my sight...even i takin e risk....
im puttin high hopes on her....
bcoz i don wanna her go lyke my frens did....
till my tears have fallen...
i wanna share it with you....
till my heart breaks.....
i know u cn stitch it back for me....
for the last time i wanna b wif u....
i know i cn die peacefully by ur arms....

ilyass.....

episode 30 - startin a new chapter awaits....

haiz....past have became my memories...present are goin...the future awaits me...i have nothing in mind just to update blog....such a bore...hmm...i keep askin myself on what to do...haha...i wanna b wif her...i nd her to trust me so dat she could take me wif her n b wif fe long2 tyme...haiz....i juz don wan her to leave me....haiz....

ok dats all fer e post....n there request i nd fer u.....

please im begging u...im prepare fer anitin...please...juz give me a chance...n i will bring it to you....i will do anithing...i will nt give up till i get u.....

ilyas.....

episode 29 - ????

haiz....e 7th daes of fastin...still goin...my looks is goin strong...bt my life is goin weak...i cant stand up on my behaviour....fer most...i cant stop my habits...i cant love anione...i cant b in love...i feel like im bleedin out wif no such things as reasons...i can only b in love once...n i don noe wen izit...2 more years need to prepare e full of NS...haiz....e 1st letter of NS has come...i am really depress n weak looking...i cant blame on u...don misunderstood....smile...i will do anitin to make others happi...n please do not make me happi...because i cant b happie...its only can please me to be happy...if anione does feel hurt...don feel...let me feel...

ilyas.....
fading off in your lyfe....
will i make it back....?

episode 28 - takin no action 2 diz dumb2 werld inside me...

hey...nothing in mind...juz shocked how she talked to me just now...its like wow!...ha(sarcastic one)...my laughing career inside me has gone to the pass...like everybody says...there is no feelings inside me...there's none inside except make people angry with me thats all...i'm proud to say that im stupid, heartless and dumb2...im none...im worthless...im just wasting my time here with no life spend...there's is no need 2 make myself happen...even there is one...she will nt tell me or even dare to talk to me...i am easy to be fool...

see...im useless to be around...my life as can consider as drama puttin episodes in it....i will promise myself to nt b in love even my heart taking me to it...please do not consider yourself to blame...i alreadi am to blame there is no other than me to blame...i blame myself to underage smoking..i blame myself to making bad habits to people...i blaming myself to put in love for no reasons behind it...i blaming myself to puttin weird behaviour on everybody...i am blaming myself to put others in trouble...n all that is in my mind are put into blame on me...if can...put all the blame on me n not others...i am tired of making myself being a hero...i am prefer to be a slave for everybody...n startin this day onwards...i am making everybody pleases me to death...if can...because i am goin to be or nt...to tell everybody the truth...i am the troublemaker nt others...i am sorry...please if can..just ignore my stupid enough behaviour...because tears in me has nothing to others....thanks for all the concern...

good luck in everybody life...no need to gd luck fer me...because i have bad luck n it wont go away...i prefer being a useless bachelor with no ambitions...thanks for the concern....

ilyas always hates himself....

episode 27 - Sept Twenty Second.....

i have been through alot of tough loves....i juz cant stand all e jealousy n rumours talkin all around...i just hate it...why cant i just be in this lonely werld...a long dae a long nyte and a long story...why me alwaes in deep trouble...why me alwaes in e hartbreakin thingy....why me alwaes in e misunderstood mess ups...i cn b ur superman...n sumtymes i have my own weakness in a wae of makin me....i can live without my heart...as i cn sae im heartless....i cant force love....i cant force anitin...bt i cn force myself 2 b my ownself...am i too concernin abt u? or am i too pressurin u? is dere such thing as forcin each others mind? i tink its no...

love cn wait and destroy our hart fer no rezens or e other...i cant believe diz is happenin...i lyke my wae of living e old tymes wif her...n i want juz 2 spend it e same treatin u as e same wae i treatin her...i wanna spend e whole of my lyfe through juz b wif u....i hope diz make sense 2 u...i wanna melt ur hart if cn...every single moment n seconds in our lyfe....i will b nt in diz werld...i wish dat if god let me b wif her...i appreciate alots...

In This Very Moment...I would like to appreciate my parents for bringing me up to this world...n there is a reason behind it...i will nt like my own siblings...i will like others n only u...

IN THIS LONELY NITE...IN THIS LONELY WORLD...IN THIS LONELY PERSON...I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAE....PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF I DID WRONG THINGS TO YOU.....

ilyas places his heart to yours....n only urs....

22nd september 2007
3:23 am

episode 26 - smiley dae fer me....haha

its a big start fer me coz i woke up around 12.45???i tink soo...haha....kinda of funnie though wakin up so late...haha...den quickly bath n....guess wad...i met my lil sis...haha...as far as i noe...she kinda short n gd hearted n lykes 2 play around....haha....we play at e bukit batok CSC...haha....i tot we r gonna play pool or sumtin...bt at last i found out...dat they r playin at e arcade....as usual...e gerls game...e para dance...haha...i was kinda shameful at a start...haha....den all e laughter has gone...bck again e my aunt's house nearby...chill at her house...awaits fer 2 break fasting....haha...den.....

i went 2 boon lae....fer terawih wif my fren....haiz....quite boring though...haha....nvm...its ok...as long i had fun juz now....i was wonderin...wads is wrong wif her???i also donnoe y...am i 2 care fer her or am i too controlling....??hmmm....

ok dats all fer 2dae...nytez2.....

ilyas places his heart 2 u....

episode 25 - through struggle

abt struggling in life has made so terrible....some was piece of shit n it juz came irritate me alots....now it is 5th dae of ramadhan....i've been fastin e whole 5 daes of sufferin daes...well...its no biggie...coz im alreadi trained 2 b fastin b4 e fasting month....haha....

sumtymes i cn wanna waste my 16 yrs of lyfe fer no rezen...n it is no cure 2 dat....my hart is a piece of my dreadful piece in my body...it is all bcoz of my father...alwaes beat me at my back till i gt second hartbeart...i've been sufferin diz probs since dat dae i gt it....haiz...everityme nd 2 e hospital n everi check ups nd money fer juz 2 check my hart condition...dat is my dearest memory dat i had during e past tyme...i kinda miss my old frens dat been wif me fer so long...n now they r gone juz lyke dat...i have a new mission now...2 wait fer everibodi 2 settle...n we go as one...with her of coz...haha....

k dats all fer 2dae....

ilyas loves you.....

episode 24 - choices

choices r meant 2 be made by demselves or e other wae round....my choices r made 2 b simple by followin ur hart nt ur guts....i faced almost hard choices...bt in e hart n makes it so ez fer me...sum r makes ppl hurt while sum r made ppl happier....ppl some tink abt me dat im kind of a nice person bt most of dem r nt...i also donnoe y ppl alwaes tink negative abt me...if cn...i wanna make all of my choices 2 make ppl happi n don makes others worry...its ok if u reject me...as long ure happi in ur lyfe wif others u feel better e most....nvm if im hurt or feel e pain whum u felt it...i cn bear as long i don deserve 2 die in their bck...if i don exist diz werld hu would b??i wanna c my sis...if cn...i wanna b ferever...i even cant see my sis' face...i donnoe whom...ppl cn betray or stabb me at e bck...nvm its ok..one dae they will also...

ppl i alwaes fightin bck my tears away frm others n make others tink dat im nt cryin...bt inside i feel hurt...promises r nt meant 2 break it...neither do i...i alwaes wanted dreams...as far as i noe..all r shattered bcoz of me alone...i wanted 2 b wif whom i loved e most...now i noe wads ppl sae love as a game dat we should nt play wif...its a matter of fact...2 genders collide, c each others eyes n backgrounds whether dey r nice or nt...its juz a matter of skills 2 make it more challengin...

k dats all...c ya 2 morrow mate...haha....
ilyas loves you

episode 23 - tiring dae....

k here it goes...well in e mornin i didnt wake fer mornin eatings....haiz...feelin more weaker...den 2morrow nd 2 go 2 werk....URGHHHHH!!!!!!!! leceh nye....haiz...i need 2 werk...whether it is tirin or nt...bt i noe dat it is fer e sake of my pay n others so is she....save money dokz...haha....i wanna 2 buy new kurung ler...haha....wanna buy light blue...haha...my aunt bought fer me brown...lyke my skin tone...haha..nvm...still i love dem...haha....everi single dae i mizz my frens sey...n even her...haha...i love her so much...bt sad..she cant go out dat much...nvm...i still wanna sacrifice fer e soul of my fatherhood...haha....

as a man....i will do anitin fer her...n in my hart n my mouth...n even my body dat i promised myself nt 2 lie...neither cheated nor lie 2 her...fer e sake of my onli one......diz will b my last one...n i will nt choose other again...or else...i will nt b goin 2 search others...let others search me...oh god...plz help me 2 strength n hope so dat i cn succeed anitin...i will keen 2 do anitin juz fer u n my ancestors....with ur powers...u cn do anitin xcept fer bad doins uh...haha....ok dats all.....

ilyas hearts you...

episode 22 - life stories...

i have been alot of tinks 2 go through in my whole of my 16 yrs of life....almost all i achieve solvin e probs...e lyfe n tymes i have been through n struggle within my hopes n dreams...my dreams has alwaes been shattered..bt my hopes are all e onli one i cn achieve....in me...i have 5 tinks...hopes, trust inner-self, patience, respect and sincerity....

i can alwaes trust others n makes me more comfortable...i love my old frens n even my ex...i dont care how dey did to me...as long they forgive me n i forgive dem...my besties once hated me n became foes or alibis...i forgive dem...its a matter of fact...i still love dem wenever dey treated me badly or nice....i don lyke others 2 treat me in food or others...i lyke others 2 treat me as a best fren...tears cn b shared...secrets are meant 2 tell me...i will keep it till e tyme it stopped...now i know dat my life is all written in my hand...bt it doesnt shows wad am i doin in e future...bt in god's will n trust...i noe wad i am doin is ryte or wrong....i am a discipline human being...i cn b treated funny either cute or nice...bt i dont lyke wen i am hot tempered...i don hate muslims or other races....i respect dem...i came 2 diz werld juz fer 1 rezen...to do tinks bck in e same waes dat i have been born 2 do....

i wish nt 2 fight ppl neither 2 hate ppl...it is in my own waes of lyfe i wish 2 spend...i will enjoy my life with sumbodi i whom i loved e most...i dont care abt her looks or outfit she is wearin...bt i noe she will comfort me n cheer me up wenever i feel sad or depress...n alwaes love me of wad i am....god...will i grant my wishes dat i have in mind n do make it come true...give e wae of success n dreams so dat i cn believin in myself...

may god b with us ferever more...n alwaes trust him...i will promise u dat i will become a good role model 2 my family n others....amin.....

ilyas places his heart 2 urs...

episode 21 - the new job makes me restless n no tyme for others....

walau...e new job makes me feel restless...no tyme for my frens n my love ones....haha....i nd sum off fer my werk....plz god help me to make diz job feel much better...n i quit soon enough....i wanna 2 continue my N lvls exams n finishin my exams soon enough...so dat i cn relax my mind n enjoy wif my love ones...i mizz my dayah alots ler...haiz....i nd 2 wait fer e tyme onli....ltr wanna go out 2 c movies...haha...btw....i cn call e dae should b couple's nyte....haha....haiz...if anione readin diz....plz msg me or call my hp...SOS!!!bcoz the couple's nyte is on 21st Sept...haha...
kk dats all...c ya on dat dae....

ilyas....

episode 20 - my story...haha

hey2....haha.....i gt a memorable of my lyfe...yay!haha....den go out...was such a bore....haiz...cant live w/o my hp n my ez link n my dearest dayah n my adek ku tersyg shiQin...haha....
love dem so muchies...haha.....
my dearest go chalet....e other wen outin wif her family n i am here doin exactly nutinkk...haha....
i mizz her so damn much till wanna hug her titely....hehe....
n den my lil sis....nd 2 cubit her kiut2 cheeks...haha.....juz wait fer e dae....haha....U R DOOM!haha....
i wanna go out wif my dearest la...haiz.....mizz her so damn much...i cant let her out of my site lyke old ex....
nd 2 b wif her by my side as lyke everidae...haha.....
now its 1:07 am....so damn bore....haiz......
k here up 2 now....it is a shortie post...haha...kk.....
bye2......
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episode 19 - A Chaotic Dae of my lyfe....

ok....here it goes....
had yesterdae a veri happenin moment wif her...haha....
at start i was so speechless....she is so damn gorgeous sey....haha....
den i started tokin n she continue e process....veri funny e wae she speaks....
den gt 2 e place we're nt suppose 2 b eating at where we're suppose 2 b planned....
i planned 2 eat at mac....den pack of ppl....
i asked her where 2 eat....she said she juz followed me sey...haha...nvm....
den went 2 burger king.....
ate dere..bt e price lyke walau...cn die sey....nvm...for food...haha...so damn hungry....
veri paisey sey....haha...eating infront of her....haha....
btw...she cant stop eating swits...haha...lyke herself.....no wonder she swit???....haha.....

den gt home....feelin restless...
play my stupid game....GTA....
play2 till 10 pm....den i 2 myself dat y e internet gt bck...??
i tried 2 go 2 e internet....n...yahooo!!!...
it has came bck.....
den i online....
walau...so many ppl wanna tok 2 me......
haiz.....
den my admire was an issue number 2...walau...
so damn fucked up sey....
aiyoo....so stress nvr get a chance 2 rest fer awhile....
haiz....luckily its over readi......
juz stick 2 one....
n i promise her diz....i hope ure readin diz.....

I PROMISE 2 NT MESS UP TINKS IN...N CAUSING TROUBLE...N DON LIE....

kk...dats all.....

An April Rain....Kumunkingnan LK....

episode 18 - lyfe and tymes.....

A few daes havent posted....so....let me c...wad have pass.....k here it goes.....
During e last few daes....i have an issue abt my admirer.....i gt diz feelin dat we do nt get 2gether along well......a few gerls keep after me.....even my frens r searching fer me....hello am i holdin e SPOTLIGHT???!!!....haiz.....i nd 2 tell dem honestly sae....i have one....n she's wif me no matter wad happens....lyke wad i promise wif my ex....u makes inspire alot my fren......

She ask me 2 go on wif lyfe...i had 2....dere's no choice.....wad 2 do ryte....n here's e issue dat im nt readi 2 tell...bt i hope u all understand aite....i gt family issues....i cnt go out much....i cnt believe in myself....i cnt go on...i cnt damned my stupid father of mine....my father n even my 2nd brother i have 2 damned dem alot of tymes....wif 2 werds i cn sae....
Good Bye.....
So long n have a gd lyfe without me...im tryin 2 find my own destiny.....
2 ppl.....2 hopes....2 attitude...1 dream......

k dats all...
end of my posties...hee....
ilyas....

episode 17 - gettin restin....

hey......quite a long tyme i have nt update my bloggie......quite nt feelin myself lately....donnoe y.....haiz.....prelims over readi....waitin fer N lvls.....nt scared abt it....juz nd tyme 2 study.....feelin depressed....haiz.....feelin down....bt alot of tymes.....all of a sudden went crazy.....haha...siow....

hearin Bleedin Mascara.....by Atreyu....doesnt noe wad they meant by singin dat song.....hmmm.....
lettin one go does feel hurt n regrettin.....
met a new fren....
sumtymes e behaviour of hym is lyke me....haha......
so much accidents....even blamers lyke me hav nutinkk 2 do wif anitin.....
donnoe y.....haiz.....sickenin of my stupid dumb2 adek......hated fer 15 yrs.......lyke wanna kill.....he nvr make my lyfe so wonderful.....
it makes my lyfe more miserable.....haiz......
nutinkk much 2 do....have free tyme....update blog onli.....2morrow c frens at earli in e mornin at 10.30 am.....wads e rush fer i donnoe y.....
kk dats all......

ilyas......
-AAR-

episode 16 - life cn b sumtymes b miserable....

sumtymes i hate my life wen sumtinks goes wrong.....i juz busted dem juz now....i said dat i went 2 toilet...n den i juz went bck home w/o tellin dem....i was juz cant lose my anger....need 2 b patience....i juz fcukin in e bad mood....haiz.....i juz came bck.....den leks fer a moment....luckily none ask me y wif e long face....hmmm....let e stress go away.....

kk gtg....nd 2 rest.......bye....

ilyasss....

episode 15 - 09 n 10 Aug....

on e 9th of August.....

went out wif my frens n her....hehe....

meet dem at Jurong....i tink i reached dere too early....haha....

reached dere at abt 1.30.....waited abt 1 hr....dat was 2.30....

dey reached...cross inside e MRT....n meet dem....haha.....i was suppose e wear black nt white....haha...

bt my brother wearin my fav t....oh man....den meet their brothers at City Hall....wow...so packed....den went eatin n stuff.....den saw firewerks den go bck...haha....n hav a great tyme wif dem.....

on e 10th August...went out wif my auntie.....2 her house of coz....

smokin some buds....

sms'ing her.....

singin all along....

eatin....

tak care of e baby....

den went bck....haha....

its simple though even i took one of e pics...haha.....

i upload at my frenster...if hv tyme....

comment it k.....

plz....

nice comments.....

here's e picture.....

nice???haha.....

dats all...bye2...

ilyas hearts sumone....

episode 14 - an xciting nite....

ok here it goes.....on e dae itself.....i was abit jealous abt my ex dat had juz broken up fer misunderstandin...
haiz.....donnoe wad 2 sae la..... u c it fer urself.....hmm....
den i chat wif my frens......col my fren in Jurong.....doin nutinkk....
den my classmate name Hidayat....asked me whether i cn chill around wif him n his frens.....so...
i said dat i cn.....den he said dat he will cum down 2 yishun later after his father massage his hand....
dat was Taufiq.....dat his father massagin him....haiz.....
i said ok....as long don b late.....
so i waited n waited.....
e tyme was 12.55.....
still did nt turn up.....so i called dem nvr answer....
so i continue playing my comp....
den at 2.45....
dey called my aunt's home.....
i answered.....i told dem wad took dem so long....
dey said dat dei were pumpin their tyres.....
so i took 3 of my cigarettes....n go down wif my stuff.....hehe....n standard...snowcap....haha..
i love wearin my snowcap.....:D.....
went down.....greet dem wif respect....as long as i noe.....im new 2 dem ahk....coz i have nt in my life....goin out at late nights.....hehe.....den we sit down....enjoying e wind blowing 2werds us....hehe....den b4 dat i didnt noe dat Iskandar was followin dem 2....hehe....so we juz chillin as e same tyme we tok as usual ahk...hehe...nvr make noise.....2 of e 5 0's came 2 petrollin e nyte....i was lyke shit....den my fren was chillin lyke nutinkk sey...haha...den he said 2 me....leks la...tkde pape ler...kite tk uat pape jek pe....haha....btw simpan kau nye rokok btol2...nnt tkt dorg nmpk...dats wad he said....hehe...so i took his advice n done it...den we go various places 2 go around cycling fer e nyte...den we enjoy e nyte w/o no fights or etc....haha....veri enjoyin ride wif my frens....nex tyme wen i am goin 2 buy a new bike....i tell dem....hehe.....their bikes...lyke WOW!....veri nice....till cant sae anitin...haiz...hehe....
ok2 dats all......
ltr goin out 2 penin n esplanade sittin around...hehe....

chiows.....
ilyas hearts sumone.....

episode 13 - gettin started a new dae....

started skewl lyke usual.....same o-so-boring dae fer me....feelin tired lyke wanna slip at the pavement....haha.....i cant wait fer diz fridae.....haha.....goes 2 skewl.....at last....my maths im improving n gainin bck my xperience in maths.....at least sumtin im gainin bck.....nutinkk better 2 do....hmm.....

life goes on as usual.....feelin single all alone....at least my allies was in past has gone bck 2 frens.....dats gd tink....n my ex saw me wen i was goin 2 skewl.....i was wonderin frm where did she me???hmm....dats e question...haha.....im turnin frm worse 2 better person.....haiz...all e chaos has gttn me veri irritated....haiz....y sey.....

met new frens diz few daes....added new frens....tok wif new frens......stressin up wif my studies.....gt 10 more wks 2 go through my prelims n N lvl.....hahakz......nvm.....im readi fer anitin now....even i changed my schedule in sleepin...haha....onli durin recess tyme i sleep in class.....den e whole dae did nt slip...haha....nvr eat also cn survive sey...haha......ok2...dats all.....

bye.....

ilyas.....
waitin fer sumone......

episode 12 - feelin fresh lyke a single again....

hey folks....diz is a new post coz i've posted fer a few daes....haha.....kk...let me c.....diz few daes im been bz n stress abt tinks....n i hope diz tyme is fer doin my post....hehe....let me c....being single is quite fun though....no one cn disturb....no one cn find me.....no one cn msg or col wen u're sleepin......hehe.....

its lyke freedom without sumone controllin u everityme n even wen ure wif anibodi.....i wonder y......y ppl search fer me fer no rezen...haiz.....im nt a important person sey.....juz makin tyme fer ppl n spendin tyme wif my love ones...hehe.....hmmm.....i have diz feelin dat sumbodi's is tryin 2 come out...bt i wonder hu......i hope i will find out soon enough...hehe.....bt e bez tink i cn b wif anione.....haha.....i don realli mind if others don bother me coz my attitude change or wad...hehe......deletin sumone or ure realli angry wif sumone.....juz let it go n tell e truth 2 dat sumone n nt juz keep inside without feelin ani pressure or depress.....its felt relax u noe dat......

juz now i was realli2 anxious goin 2 jurong....haha....bt wasted....my 'fren'.....cant go out sey...haha....my 'fren' said she cant go out 2dae...haiz.....her cuz is repairin her comp....at least i cn b pissed...haha...bt nt la.....she's my 'fren'.....bt she said dat her fren is willin 2 go out....bt i said i don wanna....if she have is much better...haha....i wonder how my x is goin without me....hehe....i hope she'll be more merrier den as could be......i hope she cn come 2 yishun.....haha......hope so.....

kk dats all fer my post......im goin 2 wonder off sumwhere else....haha....

ilyas is waitin......

episode 11 - reflections

now......let me c.... dat dae gt pay my fine......at last....same as everibodi else....pay $30......n my adek angkat paid $30......n warn her so dat nt 2 do again....haha....sedih sey.....n me....i will do it again......juz releks chill in my single's life....n guess wad.....im happie wen i broke up wif her....coz she didn't appreciate me....wahahahha......yes.....if ure readin diz....U LEAD MY LIFE 2 A MISERABLE WAE DAT I HAVE NT WAN......haiz....feelin happi.....if i make a choice in everione's life....haiz.....n wish i cn turn bck tyme n correct my mistakes.....hehe....n i wish i nvr met shiqin......n other else....so dat my relationship life...will b no one lyke my brother's....i respect him alot even he did tinks stupid wif me n end me in e wrong......

n now.......hearin e song From Yesterdae frm 30 seconds 2 mars....veri nice song 2 hear....veri memorable.......n btw i cn live w/o my frens......at least i have my cuzzies 2 help me wae through success.......

k dats all i wanna sae....blank fer a moment.....hahakz.....

byes......
ilyas.....hated her so muchiess...:)

episode 10 - juz started a chaos.....

ok.....nvr update much.....hehe......juz a few daes....gt e letter of warnin bcoz caught smokin....haiz...i juz didnt done it.....f**k police....haiz...ltr waitin fer 2nd letter...btw its my 1st tyme....hehe...i will gettin $30....den my adek angkat is so panic dat she would had 2 pay $300....haiz.....im so worried abt her sey....im gonna help 2 find e money 2 pay her fine.....haiz....she nvr smoke den she kena....all bcoz of my stupid mouth....haiz.....

now im gonna change....n mayB n juz mayB i will gt sumone realli much alike me....hehe......i hope la....coz i tot my ex she was saying brake lyke break...haiz....den gt sick.....diz past few daes im nt feelin well coz slept late nitez studyin....juz wanna pass my N lvl....hhee........

kk dats all fer now n then....hehe.....

ilyas.....Dearest Memory n An April Rain....

Episode 9 - An April Rain has juz began!!!

juz gt a new band named An April Rain....quite touching also....haha....playing e genre of post-hardcore.....btw EMOS r such a poser.....where's e originalty......ok2.....i n her r done playin mind games.....wad she did 2 me was wrong.....haiz....i didnt said wad i juz said dat dae.....she was e 1......haiz...wads diz.....WTF!!!......y did u do diz 2 me.....i sacrifice all my tyme juz 2 b wif u.....bloody hell......n now i cant slip well coz of her......shitz......y dere's love within has so much pain n bad lucks in e end.....haiz......am i realli do nt deserve 2 b in love?????am i??......n now im realli goin 2 fade of most ppl.....cant b seen.....bt cn b heard......i hate dat.....y must me?????haiz......n now im keepin it 2 myself so dat ppl couldnt get 2 me at all.......

kk

dats all.....

Episode 8 - i knew e dae would come.....

here i am sittin in diz computer typin diz blog thingy.....n stuff....2dae skewl juz went crazy......n I.....doin e same tinkk.....sleepin in class....feelin sick.....2morrow exams.....better study......haiz.....well nt quite readi....i hope i pass with flying kalers.....hehe.....nd continue lyfe as usual......kinda stress n depress....haiz....lyke killin myself fer a living.....sumtymes i took lyfe veri simple....don wanna make trouble....bt i took advantage of it.....am I goin 2 change e wae of liyfe lyke my aunt saes......????....dats e choice im gonna make.....i hope i cn make it 2 e end of my enjoyin lyfe being a student.......i hope it gets......nt in as dyin bt in sufferin lyfe lyke b4........cn I?????

Episode 7 - happie 1st mnth!!!

let me c....fer 2dae.....woke up abt 6++....donnoe la.....coz i noe dat 2dae is me n her's 1st mnth anniversary......e school went out 2 b juz great....nt mani ppl came 2 skewl due 2 'NAPHA CRAMPS'....haha......i gt it toO....veri painful......den recess till e end of skewl i slept....veri sleepy ahk....hehe......

den went mosque fer important praying.....hehe....untill 2+.....went bck......releks fer awhile....2 wait fer e tyme goes by....hehe.....den i played comp.....hehe....den goin 2 6 pm...i went down...den planned 2 buy her a drink...i noe wads her fav drink...hehe.....i bought her dat....n kept it behind my bck.....den i waited till she came....i sat down n tink....den i knew she was goin 2 surprise me....she realli close 2 gt me surprise...hehe......bt i had this feelingz dat her bez fren will took her away frm me....haiz....i hope nt ahk.....hmm......den we sat down.......she sat toO far frm me sey....hehe.....den i scared 2 look at her face...hehe....i knew she is veri thirsty...hehe....luckyli i bought her a drink....hehe.....den we sat chat.....den once she wantin 2 go home.....i was veri lazy sey...haiz....bt nvm.....we walked 2gether2....hehe......till e lift of my cuz's house lift.....we went up 2gether....den near 2 12 floor.....she gave me a necklace which has her name on it....veri nice 2...hehe.....i appreciate e gift.....THANKS DARLINK!!!she kissed me in e cheeks den i kissed her on e lips hehe.....cant let my xpression out ahk....veri paisey ahk...haha.....den gt home.....my cuz still playin wif e comp....my turn 2 play e comp...hehe......den till nyte i went 2 fetch my kesygan mum...hehe......went home 2gether.....den nd 2 go bck 2 my cuz house 2 do HW......gt home...continued my HW...haiz......den i played my comp bck....I HATE PPL CALLED JANTAN!!! it realli hurts realli deep......haiz....nd 2 bear e pain........i knew bck.....dat everi islam nd 2 hv patience 2 succeed.....i did dat.....haiz...den corrected my mistake......den continued bck.....i wearin e necklace she gave 2 me....i promise her dat i wont take it off.....hehe....

kk dats all of my stories........
bye....
[I]lya[S]hiQi[N].....
happie 1st month anniversary......
ILY....

Episode 6 - thursdae.....050707

hmm....2dae skewl starts as usual....juz now woke up abt 6.30....bt lucky me....gt in skewl on tyme as per usual....juz wonderin wad would b up next...haha.....den bla3....b4 skewl ends....gt photo taken 4 e graduatin students nex yr....hehes....veri funnie ahk my hair...haha....den went bck as quickly as possible....den gt bck...quickly changed fer NAPHA....hate dat....bt nt lucky enough 2 pass all....wahahhaha....mayB gt bronze or silver...donnoe la.....

den after dat....went home no one is around...hehe....i went 2 my bedroom....bath...den all came.....after i shower...i ate den play comp...haha.....at nyte abt 7+....i went down 2 play badminton.....den we releks....den my bro wanna go bck....den i said ok ahk.....hehe....after dat.....went 2 my home at my mkcik's crib....do hw.....den after dat ate again...den play game....guess wad.....i beat all e highscore....haha.....yea!!!fer me....haha....den after dat...online fer awhile.....typin my bloggie coz i havent update it...hehehs.....den nt long enough im goin 2 slip......kk dats all fer 2dae......

byes.....
[I]lya[S]hiQi[N]

episode 5 - 3rd July....

2dae skewl wad kinda sleepy....haha.....
started skewl as usual....
woke up around 5+....my aunt woke up ferr me while she is goin fer werk...
den i said 2 her dat i usualli woke up around 6...haha...
den i slip bck...
my kakak sedare mornin col me....den nd 2 wake up n pick it up....
while i was goin 2 bed bck....
my mom called me.....(im stayin at my aunt's house....)
den i woke up as usual.....
den i plan 2 slip bck....den i changed my mind 2 bath ahk...haha....

i bath....den i go 2 kitchen 2 find food fer breakfast....
den i ate after i gt readi....
den i checked e tyme it was realli2 early 2 go 2 skewl....
i went 2 skewl at abt 6.35.....
i didnt mit my fren.....i juz go ahead w/o dem....
den wen i was walkin 2werds 2 my nearby bus stop....i alwaes wonder wad she bought fer me....???
den i juz carry on wif my journey.....
skewl tyme....
i donnoe y i am alwaes sleepy 2werds e whole dae.....i am realli2 sleepy...haiz....
den after skewl.....went home quickly.....
i bath again....
siap2 went 2 give my fren's guitar bck....
den my consider fren....told me dat y i didnt go bck wif e others.....
i juz told her dat i didnt c dem.....haha.....padehal2....haha.....
den i went home......
gt bck....my bro came...den i kena lecture wif my aunt....haiz....
terpkse ahk...den i understood wad dey meant.....

n now....im tryin 2 save my money 2 buy a prepaid card.....haha....
ade jgak hp utk sementara jek.......
kk
dats all onli......

[I]lya[S]hiQi[N].....
iloveyou......
since 060607......

episode 4 - .....

hahakz...veri boring ahk....hehe....yesterdae let m c....i stay at my cuz house...slip at dere instead....den in e mornin abt 8 am....woke up gt readi 2 go bukit batok....haha....veri fun though.....reached dere....leks2 at e house fer awhile waitin fer my aunt 2 go bath....den after dat....my aunt suggest 2 eat 1st....is around 10 am....hehe....im veri hungry....she ordered McDonald's....i ordered e big ones 1st...dat is BIG MAC!!!hahaha....den ate n ate....im half full...den i play my aunt's Xbox...hehe...veri fun u noe...den my aunt order summore i was lyke wah sort...! haiz....den she asked my cuz 2 ordered Canadian Pizza...haiz.....den i ate again....i am lyke a living black hole.....haha....den i ate e last 2 slices....i was realli2 full...den i bck home 2 my cuz house....is at dere....my stomach is realli2 boncet....haha....

i juz releks fer awhile....haiz.....den donnoe wad 2 do.....haiz....ltr my mom wanna asked me 2 follow dem 2 go 2 AMK fer outside eatin.....den i juz followed veri bored.....den we ate....after dat went shoppin fer while....i bought new clothes.....hehekx.....den after dat i went 2 buy sum food in e wae home...after went home....i went 2 c my sis lurp....hehe....we sat fer awhile....den sent her home....after sent her home....wad coincidence!!!at last my sis lurp another one....haiz......juz came frm chong pang....hahakz....den after dat she told me dat 2morrow we're mit...hehe....den after dat i went home.....put all my tinks...den i took a cd 2 watch at my cuz house.....den it suppose 2 b im home now....n now im still here....hehe.....i terslip wen my gal asked me 2 call her....haiz.....sedih....

kk end of pstin fer 2dae.....
bye...

[I]lya[S]hiQi[N]
misses her so much....
black metal has juz began...!!!

episode 3 - life went as usual...

wey....life cn b miserable n diff alwaes....haiz....let me c....juz now....i went skewl wif stupid hair haha....den i juz kinda feelin dat 2dae it will b goin bad....as far as i noe la....den see my fren....den we went juz as usual la...haha...den yesterdae was kinda off stupid tie dae....nd 2 wear tie lyke fer e whole dae...wah sort....haha....

we ride e bus....it started skewl veri fun....den my 2 'bez frens' juz nt tokin 2 me lyke almost e whole dae...i tink abt i did 2 daes b4...haiz....i tell my form teacher coz i cant let it out of my feelingz....i told her la...den after we ride home i kena sound by my 'bez frens'....den i cried again...wah sort...does diz get ani worse...den all knoe dat me n my frens r caught smokin fer no rezens....haiz...i juz cant trust dem animore....i nd 2 change my whole life...is truth a bad tink....now im nt tokin 2 dem animore...dats it....now everione noes all my secret...n now im nt tellin everione else....anitin i wanna tell is juz her onli....haiz....i should nt said all dat dae...haiz...i should nt tell neither....haiz....now im feelin stress n donnoe wad 2 sae.....ok frm now on i will keep my secrets 2 my secret holder....haiz....y me hving e bad luck.....

i cn b alone dats fine...as long as i hv myself n my syg....wen will diz chaos ends....n now my ex gd fren of mine tell my band members dat i love sumone else...WTF!!....ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!....I HATE U SO MUCH!!!!!!!OR ELSE I TELL EVERITINK ABT U INFRONT OF E WHOLE SKEWL....LUCKILY URE MY FREN!!!FUCK U!!!....hmph....ok...dats it...plz don tell anione abt me tellin abt dem....juz sae bye2 2 dem...

kk gtg...
[I]lya[S]hiQi[N]...

episode 2 - 2nd dae of e blog....

hmm....juz cut my precious n beautiful hair into armani....fuck lyke bdak toyol siot....haiz......limit2 tkde org tau yg i had a new blog...wahuahuahua....haiz....i hate it....i tot it juz cut trim onli...haiz....den nid 2 cut short....haiz....so damn fustrated....after cuttin my hair i nvr tok 2 my parents neither e while family of mine...i was juz pissed off even food dey give me i don wanna eat.....i realli hate it......let dem noe dat im sensitive n i am a matured man...nt a 3 yr old toddler...

now i donnoe i wanna cum bck 2 my gal or nt....cn she hv a second chance....???....does she hv....let me hv a gd sign....plz god.....haiz.....i noe u love me....bt sumtymes i cant trust u....kk...

end of my bloggie....

iLyAs.....
wen will we b unite again???

episode 1 - the new chapter of my life....

diz is my new bloggie...diz tyme im concentratin on my new life...k....now..im goin 2 ryte anitin dat related 2 my life k....hehe....kk.....

stay well ppl.....

DeArEsTmEmOrY