episode 29 - ????

haiz....e 7th daes of fastin...still goin...my looks is goin strong...bt my life is goin weak...i cant stand up on my behaviour....fer most...i cant stop my habits...i cant love anione...i cant b in love...i feel like im bleedin out wif no such things as reasons...i can only b in love once...n i don noe wen izit...2 more years need to prepare e full of NS...haiz....e 1st letter of NS has come...i am really depress n weak looking...i cant blame on u...don misunderstood....smile...i will do anitin to make others happi...n please do not make me happi...because i cant b happie...its only can please me to be happy...if anione does feel hurt...don feel...let me feel...

ilyas.....
fading off in your lyfe....
will i make it back....?