episode 59 - quiz!

Tagged by: Sweetness. :]

Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
- marrying with gf
- have lots and lots of money
- successful :]

Q: Have you ever think negative things about the person you love but in the end it turn out to be the other way round?
- yeah quite alot. haha

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
- not really but some have. :]

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
- Yes of course.

Q: Do you belief in Love?
- Like durhh till Tazzy came around. :]

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- Till the day that i can see her at heaven. :]

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
- Just be Best Friends. :]

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
- Yeah. Money that has been coming to me these days.

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
- Not really. The First time only. :]

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
- Not really. Its girlfriend only that cannot stop saying wanna to commit haha.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
- All. Even God and Sweetness!

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
- Yeah. My girlfriend

Q: Are you happy with your life?
- Not till i get the 5 grade income that i wanna to achieve.

Q: Would you give your all in a relationship?
- Yes i will give my whole universe to her. :]

Q: What type of friends do you like?
- any kind. well, i dont care either as long they are friendly. :]

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
- yes, my mistakes and my income.

Q: What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy?
- her cute face and the way she dresses. I still remembers the way gf wears!

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
- Just keep quiet and leave her behind my dreams and i will not consider her as my ex. :]

episode 58 - modern age life sengkets!

mendak ke pers kalau takde income?
merepek siot government.
aku da sengket.
haiz.
nak buat closed appointment skit nyer susah.
macam cheebai. haiz.
fought with girlfriend, msn macam soyal.
makin merepek nampak nye dunia nie.
asal time aku tengah hidup senang orang yang buat kan aku susah.
haiz.

then lagi satu pulak.
yang ni tania siape siot?
kalau bukan shiqin, then siape siot nak disguise.
seriously speaking... siape siot tania?
aku da malas nak hidup gini punye care siot.
macam sial.
nak dapat kan duit macam nak dapat kan degree sial.
haiz.

episode 57 - my first appointment!

hey! i got my first appointment already.
i was scared and terrified initially.
didnt closed a deal.
i hope the next coming appointment i will uh.
haha.
oh please at least closed as many as possible.
haha.
i wanna make money sial!

okay. now chatting with cuteness.
so sweet and cuter than before
haha.
than life going well again like as in back on track i suppose.
haha.
sleepy like usual
like i get only 12 hours to sleep right now. *yaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnn*
so sleepy siol.
haiz.
btw.
i love and miss you cuteness :]

TazzEeyas

episode 56 - outing!

returning to my oldies back.
sooo, having fun with cuteness just now. haha.
and btw, i am shocked that he's bringing nonok and konek to her mother's wedding!
oh hell no you cant be kidding me.

haiz. what to do.
orang da ajak
sooo, i will not be there for so long for sure.
haha.
and so far so good. we snog like usual. haha.
that's was the best doing it with her. haha.
not as in needing that just to see you.
i love to see you smile always. :]
and dont ever talk about committing suicide okay baby?
or i will give you to hear suicide silence!
haha.
kidding2 only

anyways.
to tania,
im telling you stop making mind games with me and seriously i hate it so much.
just tell who you are.
and you're not an odinary person i would meet everyday.
just tell whom you are.
and dont hide identity from me.
its killing me inside you know that.

had fun just now. sooo, tomorrow working!
yeahyeah.

byesbyes :]

episode 55 - replying to your blog tasha.

you know what.
im just dont want your love.
but i'll be your guidance through your own way.
i cant make up my mind whether to be with you or not.
you're making me sicker and sicker struggling and strangling by you.
do you know that i tried to call when im crying for hearing at your voice.
i dont want see my love ones die because of me.
i can be your friend, i can be your scandal.
but dont use me for forcing for my love to you.
that's not the way.

if you think that way,
well i dont think you should not be with me.
i cant understand why do you need to jump down just because me?
its that can end all of your problems.
even i also have the intentions to do that.
but i thought of having a change of lifestyle by having this job.
if i can make thousands of thousands of money, why not you?
why end your life when you have a brighter future ahead?
why?
does this stroke your mind?
please la tasha.
dont be a commit childish freak.
i hate it.
i hate when people pop up to me and say " i wanna to commit suicide just because of you."
its not the way.
i hate it soo much till you lost my feelings of having you is gone.
i didnt come on my 1st day just because of you.
and tomorrow im going to work again.
dont pressurise me can?
you're making a fool of yourself.
please.
just be more mature and think a better solution.
and you're not eating?
please lah.
you're one of fucking ex who likes to be dramatic.
hello!
you're killing me right now by killing yourself.
you lost my love already.
i dont want to be with you anymore and that's final.
but i can be with you just as be your guideline.
no buts no whatsoever.
i dont wanna hear any questions.
questions from you are not going to relpied.
thanks.

msg me when you read my blog.

episode 54 - Girlfriends sucks forever!

I am totally stressed right now.
Fought with girlfriend just now.
I hate her so much till my mind cant take it.
Even i cant take her attitude.
Why do girlfriends must be all talk no action.
Like hell.
Even worse.
Hell on the below.
Now i dont know what i am talking about.
Because i cant think a thing.
Because Stupid Girlfriend make my dreams shatter.
That one thing.
Haiz.

I cant live on like this forever sey.
When can i stand up on my 2 feet if someone keep pushing me down and
keep destroying my plans.
I hate her fucking dont know what so ever so called scandal or mataer!
macam kanina chow cheebai!
orang salam dengan hormat then tak perlu muke tak suke.
One day i sure kill that guy.
Stupid malay ass!
Like step besar jek.
Merepek.
Tapi girlfriend lagi worse.
More miserable.

Must get away as possible.
I wanna drink.
I dont care.
Heck Care.
who dares to stop me is the one going to heaven.
peace out.

episode 53 - Dinner and Dance...

today was a very tiring day for me.
you know why?
yesterday i got chalet as you know, never slept well for the last 2 days.
and today got Dinner and Dance for my Parent's Company.

The day started well. It was fun. haha.
took pictures. haha.
the ballroom was small. nothing to dance about. haha.
alot of people were there.
we played the games and enjoyed the food.
it was delicious EXCEPT for the beef part.
part of the dish is soo hard to bite. haha.

then one part of the ceremony, the indians were drunk and fight each other.
i dont know lah, but i saw everything in motion.
I WAS TERRIFIED. luckily i didnt pee on my pants. haha.
one of my parent's colleague threw a glass of beer and hit the wrong person.
then that person was bleeding. its like WOW! and somebody need help around here!
haiz. drunken people are always like this. what to do.
bygones be bygones. btw at last they were okay and they forgive each other.

at last but not least.
i love my BE-A--UUUUUUUUUUtiful baby.
i love you baby.
sweet dreams.
and tomorrow going out with her.
i hope plans going smooth. i dont wanna to fight
haiz. ego must kept inside never to let it go.

okay. update cha soon. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand here's the pictures i took with my siblings. :]

episode 52 - Costa Sands Pasir Ris

hey!
sooo damn tired during the chalet.
it was 3 days and 2 nights though.
i had fun on the first day and night.
my friend, akir was the birthday boy during 10 December!
haha. had fun SABO him. He was poured water, satay gravy and even EGGS! haha.
so funny. it was damn chaos, where it started 8 till 11 pm. Then I hate that Hidayu.
I didnt want to close to her anymore sia. like what the hell, it was a small matter when it occurs me, Irrsyad and Nazri.
And dont forget Emma.
haiz, it was damn small sia then Hidayu make it SOOOOOOOOOOO DARNNNNNNNNNNNN BIIIIIIIIG PROB!
haiz.
i wanna settle it like as in a proper settling. Well at last last day was off!





This were the pictures that we took on the second day.
It was fun and all. haha.
Went swimming as the pictures above.
Then went back same-o-same-o.
Then at night, My brother came back and GF came.
I love her sooooo MUCH!
then slept there.
Then 3rd day went back.
And now, am tired giler babi nyer..
sooo, off to sleep.
anything just type at the Cbox at my blog aites?
peace off.....[:

episode 51 - deathcore beats emo

Woke up 7 in the morning don't know why. haha
I think i'm too excited that's why.

Then at 12pm went to queenstown pasal nak beli cigarrete.
Meeting Tasha first, then went to library.
Then when on the way there, Tasha was jealous and all.
Btw Shiqin and me are just friends. Its that wrong?
Stupid ass. She was bored then what am i suppose to do.
Btw i need to sleep by after calling Tasha. Because my brother wants to use the phone to call her gf.
Then when i want to sleep, i saw this message.
Then i ask her to call me after i activate my free incoming.
Then we talk and talk. During we were talking i told her that i wanna sleep,
then she said that she was bored, so i keep talking and laughing uh.
Then when going to 4 am, my dad ask me to sleep and dont talk to phone any longer.
Then i told her that my dad told me to put down the phone.
Then i slept till 7 am.

Back to the story where we stopped.
Then we fought.
Dont want to talk about it because she made me broke my precious specs.
haiz.
Then went to city hall alone.
Then I walked and walked.
Then ate at Long John Silver alone.
Then meet my friend, Akir, ourside Long John.
Then chill and go Jamming at this Jamming studio near the Clark Quay.
Then go back chill with my brother, his friend, and my cousin.
Then go back and sleep.

That's all.
Byes.

episode 50 - she's back in my life again

Well, its a few weeks since im not with tasha. Soo, im going back to tasha. I just wanna be with tasha.
I just cant help it. I do love her and she's the only one that has been with me 1 year and goin to 2 months.
At last i can save my relationship with tasha, friends, member last night, family aaaaaaand budak2 166. Soo yeah i do love her.

Now im living in non stress right now. Yeahyeah. okay Thats all.
Going off right now.

I love you baby :]

episode 49 - the day that i knew it all.

Well i and my gf just broke up recently and it is harsh to broke up with her.
I thought that it was only the sister's friends and herself and her attitude that cant be change.
I check her blog yesterday, and found out that he was flirting with this cold blooded guy.
That guy has a girlfriend yet he trying to take her heart from me and tasha didnt dare to tell me that.
She didnt tell me everything sia. What the hell.

Im so heartbroken, dissapointed, upset, abandon and backstabbed. ARGHHHHHHHHHH!
FUCK YOU TASHA! YOU'RE THE MOST DARING BITCH THAT I'VE EVER KNOWN!
THAT'S WHY YOU CLEAR YOU MESSAGES AND TRYING TO KEEP MY MESSAGES ONLY!
YOU DONT WANT ME TO SEE IJAL MESSAGES BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT ME TO BE ANGRY WITH YOU!
AND NOW IM ANGRY WITH YOU! YOU ARE ONE FUCKER THAT LOVES TO PLAY WITH MY HEART AND YOU'RE A IRRITATING, ANNOYING BITCH I'VE EVER KNOWN!

Why is she playing this games with me? Why do i have need to leave Shiqin in the first place? Why?!

episode 48 - rushing into action

heyhey!
im back blogging already.
my life is really going well except something's dont change in life.
such as my gf, attitude and even my family.
well cant be to blame because they are of what they are.
people are always critizing our relationship whether its serious or not.
and even its irrits me whenever it occurs.

i love my baby.
its really sweet to have her.
my life always be sweet enough.
but sometimes we fought like brothers and sisters.
haha! what can we say..
we look like sibilings.
can say she is my sister and im her brother.
still... I LOVE HER!

2nd thing before i finish off my blog,
im sorry of what i've done to hurt your feelings.
coming up till december
lots and lots of events coming up.
stress!
okay thats all i wanna finish off.

chilling off
badol.....

episode 47 - Rocky Path

sooo, so far, there's so much issues such as my parents scolding me because im not that responsible in life, my relationship with my girlfriend is also unstable because she do not have the trust in me. Its like I alreadi have problems before that i couldnt solve earlier.

I have dont have enough education, money and enjoy moments. Why I cant be lyke others lyke can accept what they are and strive in anything. I am timid, stupid, english sucks, malay are dumb in speaking. I can strive much even though i tried harder. But to you im just not trying hard enough. I am not trying hard enough. I cant strive in anything. I dont need help. I want to be alone confirm there's someone will come and comfort me. I just dont like it. There's nothing much I can do in my Crib.

Its lyke a living hell i can sae. Today I suppose to go to my friend's picnic. Lyke usual, it is alwaes been a problem. I alwaes hate it when my ezlink card fare has gone to none. No job somemore. How am i going to support myself? That's the question which im questioning myself very often. That's all i reflect on. Hoping that i can survive alone without anione's help.

episode 46 - chaos!!!!

hey....
long tyme never update sia.
asek2 lupe jek. haha.
sooo, here's my stories.
that tyme when i and my gf wanna go orchard to have sometyme together.
then a few while, her sis wanna go orchard but with her frens.
sooo, she decided to ask we two to follow her and have some tyme together.
soo, we agreed.
then after meeting frens here and there,
then have fun the go home.

then got this tyme i have no mood at all with my gf.
i am realli2 jealous.
after i let her contact with other guys, i felt jealous and the wae she react to me is diff now.
haiz. i contact with other girls she doesnt let me. WTF!
haiz. the i need just to give and take.
haiya, i saw few msges that hurt my feelings alot.
i am realli2 damn fed up with her sey.

haiz. i dont wanna to talk now.
even lyke just now, she saes that she wanna go out with the same guy.
but this tyme its lyke just the both of them.
sape sey tak jealous.
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!
ngn die wah! bkn maen lawa lagi.
ngn aku, haiz skit nye pemalas nk siap.
mcm PKM sia.
haiz. i feel lyke crying sey.
its just i feel sad and jealousy takes place.
they just the both of them.
i feel its just not lyke normal outing, its lyke a date.
gasak die uh nk buat ape.
i feel lyke dont care animore.
the more im with her, the more i feel pain in the heart.

dats all, byes.
silence, i've lost you lyke no chance for you to sae forgive me.

episode 45 - boring-o-dae!

hey2! today is soooooooooooooo damn boring.
nothing to do.
checking out friendster.
and my fren just send to the wrong person.
asl selalu kat kehidupan mesti ade ke boring an die sey?
skg da kol 7.55 pm.
still im playing comp.
haha.
da takde keje sey.
malas sey.
mcm nk alik rumah mataer jek.
tapi tak leh.
mcm nk gi jek sey.
bsk baru jumpe.
kn gerek.
haha.
k uh selamat.
i miss you gerl.
:)

episode 44 - april 5

today goin out to bugis.
soo, there's nothing much to do.
just window shopping.
the she wanna buy some clothes again.
haha.
everytime, clothes clothes and clothes.
nothing else she wanna buy.
its woman thingy.
haha.
okay2.
gtg.
byesbyes.
"me-ilyas)

episode 43 - it all started lyke this

When i before started all this misunderstooding and some challenges in life;
there always be some difficulty in conquering and independence.

There's people saying that" There's a will; There's a way".
I should think what i should said, what should i react; and what should i do?
In life there's lying and telling truth, which most of them are can't be trusted.
Its just up to you whether you want to trust or not?
Its a question where most people asked.

In life, there's fair and unfair.
Whether u have luck or not.
Life is also a game, whether you win or not,
you did your best.

Well I.
Its a complicated story and even worse can say of life.
To tell you the truth its like a drama.
I faces a lots of challenges, including others.
This time i faced financial tightness, friends, family and even girlfriend.
Even though im big enough to think,
my father still punished with his bare hands.
He said that I LIED, IM STUPID EVEN I'M MORE THAN A BARBARIAN EVEN A WANKER.
I recall back. Did i do that things?
Am I became more worse?
What did i turn into?
Where is all my promises & normal behaviour?
What am i became to be?
Does this make me happy? Does this makes me more famous?

I prefer i deserve in hospital lying in pain than sitting here doing my blog.
I deserve the pain, i deserve the blood and scars.
i deserve everything that i did.

Thanks to all; i've finally open my eyes & see whats going on.
To This Very Day; i promise to myself to be more be careful and take things not too lightly.


So Long and Good Night. :]

episode 42 - HO HO HOLIDAES!

Well, last week is both Secondary and Primary skewl holidaes.
its alreadi the best of them.
haha.
for me?
haha. im finding a job now. and trying to aim the full time. Or mayB im goin to NS.
I hope.
Its the better the road for me.

Okay2.
byesbyes.
i wanna sleep right now.

episode 41 - happie belated berfdae! and have a chocalatey dae! hehe

hey3!
long time since my comp was down.
sitting here alone, door wide open. :]
on 060308 was quite of boring kinda of a kind.
Well it is a start of a birthdae i think. hehe.

then on 070908..
was a great and enjoyable tyme with my familia and my gf.
guess what!
she just bought me two tees and I LOVE IT!
the design is soooooooo good.
then todae on 080308,
im goin out again,
and now its not with my family,
its with my gf and her frens.
its quite good for a 17. hehex.

im goin to sleepover at my gerlfren's house for 1 week.
i hope this tyme is the last uh.
but im not goin to do it again.

here its all ended.
so long and goodnyte.
take care folks. :]

episode 40 - my gerl's berfdae is tomorrow! haha

hey3....

tomorrow is my future wife's berfdae!
my mom, my 3rd sister n me are planning to buy her a present!
haha...
yay2! its my 1st tyme of buying her a present.
haha
sooooooooooo.
i give u a clue.
its something furry and its common
haha...
i noe wad are you thinking ryte now!
haha
sooooooo.
its goin to be a blast n wad she's goin to find out.


kkaes.

i need to stop blogging for today.

ilyasLOVEtazzy
(ilyasha)
kinda weird diz name.
haha

can someone find a name for my gerl n me?
if can just tell me at msn!

episode 39 - lucky strike

hey3....

for sooooo long i havent updated...
hahakz
sooo...i got the opportunity, i give my tyme to update it.
kk...
me and m gerlfren has been a long tyme wif each other n this is my 1st tyme getting this long. and i wan to keep it that way. I don care wad ppl says.... as long i can prove them wrong. I dont wan to make a mistake again of wad i did to all my ex's...This is the tyme for me to do all things right. My recent ex makes me believe of all the consequences but the smoking thing is making me more cut down. haha. Her name was Shiqin. I dont think u noe her well. I hope someday i wanna to hang out wif her again. But she is skewling all the time. sooo, if can somedae, i will.

Well, my ITE career has almost ended bcoz of my absency for 2 daes. haha. Luckily my class advisor give me a second chance. Okaes dats all i wanna share about.

Thank You all! Even my precious Tazzy n Shiqin. Thanks Both I love u guys.

IlyasLOVEtazzy~!
FrontageFlesh.