episode 71 - at orchard's tragedy

i woke up soo damn early just to talk to my wifey.
haha.
like crazy right?
haha.
then then, talk to gf for awhile cause am working at orchard.
soon, after that, fought with her..
i was soo damn guilty after it.
that time was working time.
i was so nervous and scared.
till i dont know what to do.
i just talked to them, and and i am tired.
sigh.
then after that, sat at khatib alone.
drink and smoke that's all i do.

and got this one guy was story-ing about his life and wants money.
he was like no shame of person begging for money and wants my ez-link.
whatever it is, i was soo damn stupid to give him all the money that i had.
soo stupid sia me.
arghhh!
nevermind.
then i was like going-to-cry sey.
haha.
then after a few while, i went back and eat then blog.
then after awhile, i try text gf.. and at last she message me back.
then chatted awhile then i encourage her to study smart :]
i love you baby.
anything call taws.
:]
i will always love you and this is a promise. :]
thats all for tonight and am going to sleep now.
tomorrow will be doing nothing day for me.

and have a nice day.

ilovenadhirah:]

episode 70 - tiring day of all. haha.

yesterday, was soo hyped up and dont know where i wanna go.
haha.
firstly, went to pick up my baby.. then i was playing dont know where to go.
then at last got a seat at around my cousin's house.
then chatted and chatted.
mostly she was the one all the way talking while im all the way listening.
was fun listening to her.
then she smokes eventually that she said that she's didnt smoke for 1 week already.
poor her.
at least she's did not smoke contrabands, hurr.
macam malu uh.
haha.
then i just smoke uh.
haha.

then meet my friend at boon lay then go khatib then go yishun.
soo damn tired sia.
wah!
got home at 3 am plus.
got home eat, then sleep.
that's all.

episode 69 - the day has come! haha

lately, im doing a fresh for myself.
my ex, tasha is also doing it.
soo, it will be finally over after all the misunderstooding and misery craps having this and that.
no more tired, sadness, dissapointment.
now? haha.
hoping my hunny will be more loving than her.
and i will have high hopes that we can get this quite a longer and everlasting relationship.
and as far as i know her..
she's sweet, elegance, and what else could i wanted?
she is all i want. haha. if you're reading this post..
message me! you are always be my baby and i promise to you that i wont let you go.
you are my love bug and its rare to have you in my life.

what i felt in this life today that, i feel more freshed and makes me feel that she is the one
that i've been waiting for along time.
well, its just another 2 perfect hours to go.
yeahyeah.
cant wait to see her.
okayokay stop it sey ilyas.
haha.
see ya baby.

naddeeyas :]

episode 68 - a fresh start

the 1 year 3 months has at last came to an end.
all the misery business has gone and perished.
and the waiting has really came true.
i am happy now.
cause the last time, i tried to ask her.
she said she need to think of it first.
well, now at last i got it.
yeah. :]

and now, i need to get all the things back into proper position now.
now feeling all alone at first.. soo, yeah.
tomorrow seeing her!
woohoo!
haha.
fun or what.
haha.
okayokay now i cant wait.
seeing her for the first time.. i mean is like the 3rd time already.
haha.
okay best.
i hope tomorrow going smoothly.
haha. best or what.
:]
okayokay.
off to shower!
haha.
see ya tomorrow baby.
:]

episode 67 - 240109

today suppose to go khedir's birthday,
but instead i went out with tasha's sister.
went drinking at the same time, prank the K-wads.
one's name Fadlie, he's from voguelicious crew,
the other is Nec, that always nec..
then the other one's is Al.
haha.
they all are kinda handsome though, but to sad, they all are k-wads.
haha.
and did you know that after i got home, Nec called me, and i was soo, damn panic.
then i tried to calm down myself and then i said everything that i could.
then put down the phone and then text blinky.
haha.
and everything's over with tasha.
because of she, i cried like hell.
and thanks for the heartbroken.
because of her, i've been paranoid.
that's why.

that's all.

episode 66 - live a lie

on the 20th January,
it was tasha's birthday.
she asked me to tag along,
soo i did.

it was quite boring though.
we ate Swensen's at Causeway Point, then went to Toa Payoh
hang out with them while her mother went to meet her new husband.
turns to be okayokay uh.
nothing better to do.
i got no smoke.
wish i had one pack of it.
haiz.
nevermind.
well, starting anew now.
well, not quite seriously.
just one boring blog post
and i hope the other one is much more worse.

episode 65 - ... speechless.

...
started day like shit.
nothing to eat except for this cold pancake that mom bought yesterday.
soo, yeah.
i hate this life.
sigh.
my life always been miserable.
im going to drink alone near dont where i wanna be.
no one can disturb me. its better for me alone.

i hate it ot be this way.
haiz.
well, i think there's no one will ever going to be mine.
nevermind. like leqiu said.
i must wait. :]

episode 64 - same old same old.

im truly sorry.
i didnt mean to said that to you.
i didnt know that you have your problems.
i really regret that i said that to you.
i dont to end it like this.
you are my life saviour.
my guardian angel infact.
when you laugh, i feel so delighted.
when you speak, im feel excited.
please baby dont go.
i need you right now.
i wanna talk things out.
please let me talk to you.
i really really wanna talk to you.
please.
i wanna need your help.
there's no one except your love that you showered me.
please.
i need you.
give me one final chance, and i swear i wont break it for the sake of you.
i promise.

episode 63 - same day same problems

it started off fine.
and the next thing i know it began to feel bad.
i feel bad to myself.
i feel bad to anything.
im sorry shee, im sorry MLN, im sorry ameera and im sorry tasha.
im a no use of a person to live on.
imagine that i dont exist in this world anymore.
seriously.
just imagine.. or even worse.. just pretend that i dont know any of you guys.

i cant do this anymore.
i just cant.
my hopes are gone to drain as it should.
it should be.
im a nobody now.
i just go to work each and everyday.
seriously.
when i see anybody whom i used to knew.
i will be very not knowing you all.
and thanks for all of your rejections and acceptions.
bye you all.
this is the last post that im gonna give you all.
to say my last goodbye.
i will be ending my life soon.
i will never be exist in this world now.
bye.

episode 62 - just fucked up

i just hate yesterday and today also.
just cant be bothered.
you know what?
yesterday tasha told me that i'm not responsible for anything.
yes of course im not responsible per.
coz we're over already.
and we're friends.
just plain friends.
and that way i dont even bothered seeing her ever again.
not a single one of it.
she's such an asshole.
everything she put the blame on me.
what the hell.
fuck her.
nevermind.
i will burn her pictures and never will be exist in my life again.
bye tasha you fucking miserable life goner.

episode 61 - 9 Jan 2009

hey...
today was soo fucked up and yesterday's one.
i hate being a fucking sore loser and cant be independent and im soo forgetful about things.
haiz.
semalam peh nyer menyesal siot tengok muke sundal tu.
haiz.
skit2 ungkit kan alik pasal yang dulu.
itu kau cakap da berubah.
konek uh lu.
makin lame makin mengarut siot.
haiz.
tadi da suppose to be meeting my darling and thanks to tazzy, THANKS EHK MINAH!
pasal kau aku da dapat jumpe darling aku tau tak.
nasib besok aku da dapat appointment ngan die.
haiz.

okay thats it.

episode 60 - the day that should be ended a long time ago.

a good day has started off.
a new year to start afresh.
let the past be the past.
and keep moving forward.
i have no time for relationship for few months.
i want to enjoy the whole of my life be with friends and family.
:] its been great and work still sucks like usual.
i havent sold anything yet. like WTH!

i want to buy elements clothes and shoes. even their bags.
i love ELEMENTS~!
now my dreams has been perished because of the person you know who.
i dont want to think about her anymore.
i want to live up my own life whether its hard or easy,
i need to go through life.

okay byesbyes.
thats all for today.