episode 80 - blah. blah. bleah. :]

in life there's alot of challenges like obvious..
you can get what you earn..
but if you're not earning, nothing is possible.
seriously..
i miss my loved ones..
i miss my old times when we had fun together..
what to do.. life must move on..
and Nadhirah..
You're forgiven..
dont worry..
im fine..
and i promised you that we're going to be closer than other siblings.. :]
and thanks for all you've done with me..
and thanks for being my girlfriend even though it was awhile.. :]
i really appreciate of what you've done with me..
and im glad that i could help you.. :]
and im sorry that i couldn't go out on V's day.

did you know that i cried the whole day just because i cant go out with you.
haha..
very weird right.. i know..
:]

soo, everything's stabilizing now...
i hope this would not end...
and i almost forgot...
Nadhirah.. thanks for complimenting me. :]
i really do appreciate all the sayings. :] and i understand..

see ya around peeps. :]

episode 79 - the worst feeling of my life..

well, it started well when i was woke up at my friend's house..
message gf.. then it was like happen to quickly..
then it was like everything gone, tasha got a new boyfriend..
nadhirah(my recent one) love another guy..

then my suppose closest clan, didnt inform me of what happening..
what am i suppose to be with you all..
soo fucked up you know that..
fucking MLN bastards..
what am i to you all!

and the most important thing of all..
i need to carry on without anyone with my side..
and im too scared to go for serious relationship..
cant go on with this life actually..
i need to depend on myself..
just a few weeks to go,
then it was our first month..
then it is gone forever..
its not your fault..
its mine.

and i wanna celebrate it on my own..
thanks all of you for making me proud of myself as a sore loser.
thank you.. so much appreciate it..

episode 78 - payday

at last the day is here.
woke up around 10am.
haha.
because of someone called.
haha.
then after that i called my manager to confirm for my payday is today.
haha.
happy nyer aku. :]
muke ada senyum.
haha.

then thursday meeting gf.
then make up, snog and snog all the way.
haha.
kidding2 jek.
i've learnt more than words and im yours already.
yeahyeah.
i've yet to learn more.
haha.

episode 77 - boredom as per usual.

well today like usual nothing much to do..
gf went to school and studying while i sitting at home didnt go to work. soo, yeah.
because of my pay has been postponed,
i cant go on my valentine's day and even to work..
then it was like whatever and whatever.
soo, today can predict it is a rainy weather. :]

to be truthful to my gf..
this is a short message.
"B, im sorry that i've made you mad and stressed. I'm really am. I wont talk about a girl and continue life with you. The misery in head is all gone and passed it on to you already. :]
I hope this is a new start for us okay baby?"

to move or not to move, its already moved and not to turn back time or nothing..
mistakes that everyone did in the past and the present could be corrected..
for whatever we do or need to be shared, communication is the important thing.
:]

i love nadhirah aqilah so much. :]

episode 76 - valentine's day

valentine's day is today.
gf going out with her friends today while my fucking manager give my pay postponed till next tuesday on the 17th.
im soo felt sorry for gf sey.
she was so excited of meeting me today..
but i cant make it.
i try make it up to you okay? i promise. :]
and when i checked my tagbox..so many people tagging me.
this time i've privated my blog..
soo no one can see or read my blog.
soo sickening this people.
they say to me no life..
well, you are also..
and nadhirah, thanks for backing me up.
i owe you big time :]

well up to today feeling like a prisoner at home. :]
nothing better to do just play games and more boredom. :]
okay that's all for today.

and baby, have a fun time with your friends. :]
im sorry that i cant be with you on this very special day. :]

episode 75 - blablabla..

im a total dumbass to be frankly speaking.
cant talk much..
cause i want to lose my stress on this friday,
maybe im going alone or something..
im not going back home either.
haha.

my mum was mad at me...
skit2 tak boleh kene. macam sial.
then the other one is like cant give and take..
then another was like fuck says that im off today.
cheebai..
spent time alone i think for this few days.
relax and chilling is what i do till friday.
that's all..
:]

episode 74 - sick..haha.

yesterday..
prepaid went low.. like what the hell.
then at last just top up 18 bucks only.
my pay is on friday the 13th.
sedih ke per.
but nevermind.. i hope that gf can go out on valentine's day.
:]
you know what..
i hate this girl since she did something to me.
i was seriously fed up, upset, heartbroken, mad and even my ego is starting to react up.
i did not want to show it infront of gf..
instead i did it here instead.
if i show it to gf..
nanti die start uh membebel jek all the way.
haha.

the scene is always keep repeating and repeating inside my head.
why i cant always forget about the thing i always hate.
i feel so damn mad till i wanna kill that daughter of a bitch.
but i cant..
you know why?
i tell myslef to remain calm and just pray to god it will be okay.
and let the forgotten will gone.
but when i daydreaming about another thing,
it will be that particular scene of that girl did that to me.
i wish that i would never be with her or even better dont even knew her in the 1st damn place.
i feel regretting about having that girl in my life.
can say she is the one that make me miserable in each and every moment.
she is so stubborn like you wanna slap her the face real tight.
why is she soo daring while im not..
i just wanna kill her!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks uh ehk!
you make me really miserable.
cakap orang jek tahu..
kau pkir kau besar ehk?
macam pantat kau nye tepi!
da macam sundal!
kau memang dasar tak sedar kan diri.
aku rase time kau ngan matair kau pun aku rase confirm skejap.
da satu tak cukup satu.
at least aku tahu limit aku and aku tahu macam nak solve probs kalau dalam relationship.
macam kau!
smue nak take time.
semue nyer nak tolong even though aku tak suke tu laki.
semue laki yang kau kenal smue macam sundal lah!
macam kau jugak!
geram nye aku..
pasal kau aku rase macam nak bunuh diri aku sendiri kau tau tak?!

kirim salam uh kalau kau nak call ke atau message.
limit2 aku tak akan layan kau nyer.
aku da malas nak layan kau..
waste prepaid aku ngan time aku jek ngan kau.

episode 73 - funny and money incident

errr...
today ehk?
hmmm, let me recall it back..
okayokay.
its all started at 12pm and above..
where got this one auntie wearing a pink shirt...
and a flower type shawl..
was soo damn kiasu one.
always ask here and there.
then she flew off.
that's one.

the other one..
my gf. haha.
i understand what you're facing now.
im sorry that i didnt suppose to know that i should messaging you.
i truly thought that you need to be alone.
haha.
im sorry b.
:]
thats two...

then the other thing is got 2 combo's at once.
haha.
got this one person drop down a 10bucks note on the floor and quickly pick up..
and try to find the person...
then dont know, i put the money inside my pocket.
haha.
:]
then got this one uncle asking...
"why is my new ez-link card cant be used for Macdonald's?"
i just wanted to laugh!
hahaha.
then my colleague tell him that it can be used till 2nd quarter of 2009.
haha.
then he left..
i laughed the whole way.
b, if you're reading this..
you surely wanna be there.
haha.

then tomorrow meeting gf.
yeahyeah.
:]
i also dont know why im behaving like a monkey this days.
haha.
as i said..
then after that...
went home...
make jokes with my friends then went back sweet home.
haha.
finish...
end of the story .
:]

episode 72 - working days..

feeling fresh as usual.
then after reading babystar's blog,
feeling like im a total dumbass because of shakespear's drama.
haha.
okayokay.
i will feel relax and calm always okay?
:]
err, just now went to my aunt's house and eat when my break time is only 1 hour.
haha.
it suppose to be 3.30pm till 4.30 pm.
haha.
then i went to 6 pm back to work.
haha.
wah!
dear, i feel sorry that your grandpa's is sick,
well tell him this,
get well soon!
:]