episode 149 - edge!

i never knew that this getting on the edge.

i never seems to be cared so much.

it is happening again the second time.

and guess what, it always happens on the OCTOBER!

sighh. why must october have this kind of tragedies?

why am i selfish not to say, okay we're having a timeout.

and everything will in god's hands right now.

please give me another chance.

i still love her.

i know i did a great sins.

and i know my sins a big mistakes.

but to think back, she's the only one i wish to be with.

she is the dream girl from me.

i dont care what people says.

but i really love her alot.

i wish this never occured in the first place.

i wish this never happens.

i wish i can erase of my memories to square one.

i wish she could be my first and the last girlfriend.

i promise myself not to move on. i still wanna be hers.

i really am.

and now im suffering this depression, having the love lockdown.

i hope someone will help me in this situation.

i hope i will myself change in the future.