as i would be crumbling down of sorrows,
better done than saying.
having one is worth BUT
having alot is worthless.
from now i would not knowing
how actually im feeling right now.
in this stage of life,
i would be awkward when finding one to move on.
not actually using her neither do it as to rebound this feeling of jealousy.
as what i can do is just move on.
"if you love someone the most,
you need to let her go no matter what, even though you think
that woman would be your lovely wife"
that is what my ex always told me.
it will always keep me wondering
what i did wrong for the whole of my relationship.
and btw, this is not the 1st time im doing this.
i need to keep my head held high and keep moving forward.
there is no point of turning back.
she doesnt realise what i'm actually doing.
people will always see the bad side of yours and never to see the good side.
and i shall always remember that.
this stage of life is going adulthood for me.
no more playing games or trickery on others,
and most importantly, no point of having too much gfs.
so what people say.
i know im keen to change the way i treat my life.
i need to do things much more responsible.
it isnt wrong right dating someone.
it will take time for me heal on my own.
but slowly i will forget everything.
and i did things evenly.
no point having a birthday present of a person,
whom didnt know what you're passionate about and
loving the person so much till im the one whom
sacrifice soo much.
well thats not the point of what im typing.
most importantly,
new setup,
new life,
new attitude.
i will not fall for those who brings me down.
thou i will keep fighting for what it worth.