Episode 164 - imperfection

hey! 
i never came to this website for quite sometime
this is the place where i can post up my grudges and etc,
and here we go

hey ilyas in the future, 
if you're reading this, its good to know
and hopefully you're stabilising yourself right now
and getting prepared for something is worth to wait.
i have nothing on me right now. 
and remember, you've lost one beautiful girl
do not worry, if i had the chance to reflect
i would do so.

and as far as i go,
i feel shitty.
its true that friends come and go,
but do not worry, they leave and come for a reason.
you know whom been there for us and whose not.
i dont usually judge the person quickly,
but observing the behaviour is really in a correct manner.
i do make mistakes now, and so do you.

i hope you would remember this, 
please dont go and give up the life that we had put this through.
earn as much as you can and keep on living.
you still have time to repent and do stuff that you actually can do.
scootering, cycling and longboarding.
paintballing is a so so commitment.
but to think back, just try, everything has a first try.
being in a manner that no one knows how much you been through,
keep it real and always had head held high.
this isnt the end yet for everything.
there's always something to learn everyday.

make yourself as a responsible person and take care of our parents,
feed them, give them hope and faith to live.
as long they know that you've changed for the better.
and i will always be within you to fulfill the changes.
i know who doesnt like changes. 
words can never bring you down.
it may be hurt the most.
but what hurt the most to others is that,
you can keep smiling on the things you can be proud of.

this is the longest by far as i know.
through blogger, there's alot of things you can express out.
be it in a diary, notebooks, or some sort you can store your feelings through it.
the main point is, never stop believing and keep the hopes high for something great.

in the near future, if ikaa leave you, see what is above i just wrote.
no one will stay. things will always keep moving never ending. 
slowly does it and gain things back. 
give rewards to the things that your parents did and etc.
being you is you. everyone loves you.
if you're single, always think,
friends whom help friends is the friends that will cling to you
no matter what.

dee is one of them, emily was there when you were hurt.
predicx is someone whom you can hope for to be happy.
ahzi is the one whom always been with your back.
marl and yuskhaire is the new friend that brought to the depths of happiness.

think of them and they never leave you.
and always pray so that allah can hear your prayers.
pray for something good and good will always come
for those who waits.

earn, pray and keep calm.
insyallah everything gonna be fine.