soo it all been shortlived
nothing to spare time neither have time to get back up.
i have nothing to hold on
i have nothing to say either
the pressure keeps getting bigger and bigger
as i need to catch up on myself doing the things i should have done.
i failed as being a person whom people can rely on
i failed as myself on being a better person
the bad habits are getting worse day by day
being lazy and doing nothing is what i did
you tweeted there is no one can find you inner self.
well actually you already been found but i came at the wrong timing
i cant actually relive the moment but it all lasted less than a month.
never did i gave hope and faith, but you are stuck up by default.
it is not legit for me to give my precious time to anyone
i cant even trust myself to do so.
there's so many things that i can vent it out.
sometimes it is soo meaningless.
as far as i can see myself day by day, im being stranded out alone in the desert
that no one can ever reach me.
if i ever to be found, i'll be dead.
no one will ever read this.
i cant never be perfect for anyone.
i cant even understand for myself
and not being just perfect anyone, i cant do things properly.
im not being myself.
i needed someone to be there for me throughout.
but to no avail.
as much as i love being the way i am now.
i cant be the one for anyone.