Episode 179 - Day 1

 I have not done anything to impress someone I loved the most. I miss her truly. I need to get my mind to focus on things I need to grow as a person. She's always been special for me and it is not a just a phase or any other lessons that I ever gone through. I want to know how she is truly, so that I can anticipate it before she can even say it. I want to grow as a person where people will look up to me and say "I love you, I appreciate you with what you have to offer in the relationship, your hard work will be paying off. I promise that rest assured I will not give up." It hurts me to even think about it. I still need to lay off what I can do better on it, what I can take note of earlier, what I can say and make it a better sentence. 

Soo much in my mind, soo much to resolve on my own, soo much worries. What else do I deserve this.

Progress of Day 1. 

Episode 178 - Love Lasts

Definitive of true love on my own perspective, 

Its not only about how you have/had arguments, what context either one has rose upon on the topic. before it turns into toxic and draining one. 

It is about never giving one up, put full trust, self awareness, sustaining the peace, choice of words, loving one another endlessly, having understanding on where he/she coming from and validation. It has taught me by far is the eye opener as what life is as it is. A lot of adaptations and self learning through mistakes, removing bad traits to become better as person and partner. Staying through thick and thin together and acknowledge every feelings, every reason and listen thoroughly.

Its just not a usual nudge and back to old habits after 5 minutes, it has changed me to become self aware and put it on a daily tasks. She really taught me what I fail to teach myself. She knows what she wants, and out of love I want to become better and be the best for her. And in due time, after everything, I can manage to pull myself together, more sustenance within me, and focus with no stress. 

I appreciate and thank you for coming to my life, teaching and investing your time on me, even when you're done with me. I'll make yours worth it. 

Thank you, KHBA