Episode 194 - Trace back

 Soo it's been two years since I last updated. A lot of things happen during this time. Soo to recap from last two years wasn't an easy feat. There was times where I was tired and gave up and some I learned and cherish these moments to fulfill my duties as a husband to my beloved wife. 

2022

This year is the year I got married, and literally forgot that I had my honeymoon on Swisshotel. It was pleasant but most of time, if I can recall, we only drank during the time and went out to get dinners and what not. Then from there is just full on work to buy a house. Well the house thing we did got it and made down payment like about $2000. It was a lot but it really help us in some way? We did got an early bird kinda deal. But hey, it is one of the rezeki I guess. And as how love marriage supposed to be, we fought a lot on disagreements, miscommunication and misunderstanding. I feel it is a process to learn that in some way, it helps me grow and learn on the needs and wants for a particular person. I have not yet reached the certain bar, I believe its getting me there till it comes to me like second nature.

2023

I feel this year was the worse one I got soo far. A lot of things happen during this year. We fought a lot during this year. A lot of screaming match and it got soo intense till we have no boundaries neither time if it was a good idea to burst out in the open. But we did had a good adventure to Ceningan, Bali for our post honeymoon. As per usual, we went out to get food and drinks no matter if its a fasting month or not. HAHAHA. But we manage to get a really good massage and deals when we're there. There was this resort we stumbled upon during our adventures. The scenery is just one of a kind of vibe. The cool wind with waves crashing and the greenery of the forestation are well preserved, And it was my first time to see the famous Yellow Bridge. The bike there was the main highlight for the both of us. There was one time where we were riding to go back to our hotel, the scene was dark and it really hard for us to see on the dark plus it was during nightfall. I was struggling to get the bikes light on. It was hectic! We had to use our phone to see the path ahead of us with very harsh gravel path leading to the actual main road. And soon as we see the main road, the bike headlight finally worked. Soo we tried not to talk about it until we went back to hotel. Our guess is, something interfered the lights as I were trying to troubleshoot to have it back on. After the post honeymoon, We are back hustling and getting our shit done as soon as the opportunity comes. So after the whole year passed, We are glad that we are doing better in communicating, learning the ropes of being good partners.

2024

This year has taught me a lot on self loving and thinking about my wife. We still have ups and downs as per normal. But we tried to head on for our problems efficiently I guess. But so far, for this year, after Batam trip has taught me a lot on things I should have focused a long time during our relationship close to 2 years. I realized that I have not been taking out my wife on dates, not learning her quirks and likes and dislikes. And to really do things pro-actively and initiating things during the relationship. It is not just the start of the relationship neither just dates. But to enjoy each other company and making core memories together. We smoked ALOT for sure. But it is the mark of my ending of reservist, like finally. Back to the Batam trip, it has opened up my perspective during my stay alone that I can cope but it is not as great having my partner around to enjoy the delicacies there. Soo there's that. And as soon as my birthday month came up, I did not have my expectations soo high up but I REALLY WISH I CAN GET HIGH!! but it was a lowkey birthday and I got a KFC chicken platter as my birthday cake even though it is a lot of chicken to dig in. I appreciated the gesture and the company that was there to celebrate. And now, here I am at Genting for the first time to experience the ambience, the cold mountain environment. It is really everchanging experience for now. I would come back here again to enjoy the breeze of the freezing winds. And next time, to bring more cash so that I can buy stuff for my wife.

So that's about it for the memories and as far as I can recall.

The process and the growth shows character of someone commitment can change to be better or worse depends on the mindset. Soo choose to be Day 1 or one day.