Soo the things I did for today is total self reflection as to where my well being and mental health. It is not much, so I try to keep it short and sweet as what I did.
This morning I had a bad dream regarding on my ex-wife and it is not a good sign and maybe a little missing her presence and feelings is all I felt after the dream. After I was awake, went to a normal routine, went to toilet, washed my face, and I finally did my daily exercises after soo long and man, it burns the hell out of my body but it's good that I finally get to feel the burn all the emotions that aren't benefits me in the long run. As I did those exercises, I plan where I can improve, what I can control, and where should I start so that's a good sign.
So on the question on what did I survive today? Most prolly all the drama that I can avoid and making things clear soo no one will get hurt and be straightforward. I managed to tell without feeling a remorse on what I did want and need. I want and need peace in life, where I'll accept everything and anything that this life has to offer.
Where did I show up for myself, even a little? I did exercise soo there's that. I maintained my bed as soon as I got up for the day. I gotten myself a glass of water and ate my daily supplements as a form of self love.
What am i grateful I didn't do? So as to this question, maybe I feel I am grateful that I didn't chose violence each and every single day as to feel hatred to my ex wife. I still remain peace and try not to linger those moments and feelings that I had to day.
Soo lastly, what can wait until tomorrow? This one I feel more on packing, i can pack my stuff tomorrow for this Saturday's staycation with this friend of mine. I don't know if i say friend but I know it is quite complexed in that sense. She loves me but I just can't put myself in that position. So I just reciprocate the feelings the same way as her.
And that is for today self reflection. To keep changing to be better and to heal to become a better person!
Keep up the good work Ilyas!
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